Battery Recharge

The last 48 hours have been a little "hectic". Heh. I got up around 5:30 Sunday evening because of a briefer than I had expected phone conversation, after having gone to bed around 4 in the morning. Went to work, got home, laid down in bed for two hours -- I could not sleep.

So I went through the school day without getting any sleep, so by the afternoon I was running on fumes, but I was still wide awake somehow. And then I spent the evening with a few friends running them around and hanging out at a restaurant and a few malls, fighting off some depressing angst and thoughts early on. I didn't care by the end, I was having a good time, she and the several other people around were having a good time, made me feel great.

Barely got everyone dropped off at their homes in time for me to then run to work. My dad was so pissed when I got home at 9:30 to pick up my badge and box cutter because of how he had been worrying for several hours. Got to work on time! With a few minutes to spare, even. Heh. By then I had been awake around 28 hours. By the time I got home and fell asleep it was close to 36 hours, and I felt like I was going to collapse by hour 31 while at work.

I was content with going to school in a few hours. But when I woke up it was 11:41 am. Obviously my dad had called me in. That bugged me. I had spent so much energy, and time and effort the day before, and then being absent today probably made me lose points, maybe all the gains from yesterday. You know: "Out of sight, out of mind". Probably especially with one of the friends whose been really... bitter? less-caring about others? since being essentially disenfranchised by her classmates last week who is the only person it seems that I give that much of a damn about (or practically any kind of "care" about, to be honest).

Bleh... got work tonight. Oh yay... More time to think about crap...